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Julia Bte Abdullah

Age: 40
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

I have lived with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) for the past 20 years of my life. At one point in my life, OCD consumed so much of me that I was so handicapped by the compulsive behaviours. Although I knew that my obsessions and compulsions were irrational and made no sense, I could not ignore or stop them.

Previously, I had obsessive thoughts and fears of contamination. There were so many things and places that I avoided, or behaviours and rituals that I performed due to my fear of contamination.

Now, with medication and therapy, I am able to cope with my OCD and live a normal life. Although I still have certain irrational thoughts, I am now able to manage them and not let them control my life.

During this project, I faced my fears of contamination, to challenge myself to do the things that I was not able to do previously due to OCD.

For example, in the past, the thought of having someone touch my things was unimaginable as I would consider the items contaminated. Previously, I would have to clean or wipe it to neutralise the effect. Through this project, I pushed my own boundaries, handing my camera to others so that they could snap a picture of me. This is a huge step for me moving forward, letting go of my fear of contamination.

With this project, I also hope to express myself through my photos and raise public awareness about OCD. In this process, I have also increased my self-awareness, confronting and overcoming my fears and negativity. I’ve gained new confidence, more poise and calmness. Lastly, I’ve also discovered more about myself and gained an appreciation of photography as an art.


















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